Saturday, May 9, 2026

For Manuel

A lifetime ago, in early 21st-century Seattle, my then partner and I began working at our favorite restaurant.


We were beloved by the family that owned it and well-liked by the Sikh cooks. It was far from the worst job I ever had.


My partner and I were particularly close to the middle-aged Salvadoran dishwasher Manuel. Both the cooks and Manuel worked from before opening till close. 


Manuel tried to teach me Spanish, but I was a poor student. My partner translated what I couldn't understand, and between that and body language, he and I understood each other fairly well.


One day, Manuel walked up to me and gestured to my hands.  He then raised his own hands. They were horrendously misshapen, swollen, and rough beyond words; transfigured from decades of hard labor. The knuckles were like large lugnuts, the fingers stretched too far inwardly, and his nails looked like they were drawn on by smeared marker. They barely looked human. I felt guilty for not having noticed before.


Several months later, Manuel asked the owner and chef if he could get one day off a week. It made sense, even the three cooks got one day off a week, reducing their hours by 10 or 11 hours weekly.


Manuel was quickly fired after that request. I guess the owner felt he had no use for a dishwasher who didn't work 7 days a week. He was quickly replaced by a young Latino man. Manuel came back the next week with a translator to ask for his job back, but the owner refused to talk to him.


When I think about why I'm passionate about socialism, it's for Manuel, and how our predatory civilization completely failed him.

It's for the planet.

It's for all of us.

Manuel, I hope you're doing ok, buddy.

Monday, May 4, 2026

ol' bobby stalwart

These days I get high on sitting with pain.
Sitting with fear, sitting with shame.
Shitting the same: not all that great.
To do a good deed, it's not too late.

This is for those who became their own monsters.
This is for my second Narcotics Anonymous sponsor.
This is for Marian, this is for Bill, this is for those that I almost killed.
This is for real, I ain't fronting no more.
I left my spit bubble armor on eternity's shore.

I swim naked with mosasaurs, mystery abounds; so I could care less when I sink to the ground.
I'll always wake up again, just like Azathoth our lord, and we don't do it just cuz we're bored.

Saturday, May 2, 2026

YOU-NIK

YOU-NIK

The only Eyedea that I cared about died.
Y unsheath the proboscis when we're all empty inside.
Our will to survive is maladaptive and snide.
So I don't mind that in 22 years I will die.

For Manuel

A lifetime ago, in early 21st-century Seattle, my then partner and I began working at our favorite restaurant. We were beloved by the family...